No Matter What Happens, I’m Not Going to Skidaddle This Time

img_0343There are many things that I’ve either quit or failed at in the past. And I’m pretty sure I will still continue to do these things for the rest of my life. It’s not a bad thing, we just perceive it that way.

I don’t advocate quitting and failing just for the hell of it. If you feel that you can continue something and do well, then by all means do so. Quitting and failing are just a part of life. To me, they are markers indicating a new change of direction. It’s a form of release from resistance.

For instance, my previous job and getting my bachelor’s degree in philosophy were factors in my life that I tried several times to achieve success at and just kept failing. I would not bow down to quitting because quitting was not a part of my vocabulary at the time. I was feeding my ego and what happened was that it caused damaged to my self worth. Basically I kept disrespecting myself.

What I realized was that the reason why I failed so miserably at my job and at the university I was attending was because I no longer had passion towards these things. I no longer gave a damn about them because the desire I had for them was running on empty. My job continuously became toxic to me, and I don’t do well with formal education anymore because I feel that I’m independent enough to learn on my own. I had to fail over and over again in order to realize I just needed to quit.

My passion in life is to travel, write and do anything that serves as some kind of inspiration to people. It makes me feel good when I can help people, because in return, helping people, helps me.

I’ve been journaling for years and years. It’s my main form of meditation. I naturally enjoy it and I write a lot! The more I write, the more I feel calm and at peace. Sometimes I wonder how things would’ve been if I had started blogging 3 years ago. But it doesn’t matter because I needed to go through the bullshit in order to learn what not to do. Don’t we all? I’m just glad I started blogging, even though I feel I’m a bit tardy. Better late than never, right?

So now that I have the foundation for my blog set up, I want to continue building it up with new content. It’s just fun. I can journal for myself and blog for everyone else to read. I’m still new to blogging because I feel as if I need to spend some time filtering what I write before I publish, whereas, my journal is just my own free-flowing, non-filtering place to take a mind dump.

The difference between blogging and my former job is the fact that I’m willing to work for almost nothing in order to pursue my passion to travel and inspire people with my blogging as opposed to making good money working a job that makes me feel like shit and that I don’t have a passion for. With blogging, I am aware of the “obstacles” but I see them as stepping stones. Even though I may not have a lot of viewers, I’m still very driven to put in the work and keep posting because I learn a lot as I go and it’s fun. And because it’s fun, it raises my vibration to align with what I desire in life.

I’ve read several random articles about how most bloggers fail and the several different reasons why. The most prevalent reason is just that their expectations are too high at the beginning. I already knew I wasn’t going to get rich over night and I’ll probably be broke for a while.

Some other reasons for failing are that they don’t make time for it, feel discouraged because they feel no one reads their shit, feel they aren’t good enough at writing, have something better to do, don’t have the passion for it so they easily forget or just don’t know what to write about because they try too hard. So they quit. But it’s understandable if you just don’t have the passion to push through. But I honestly don’t worry about any of those things. I just say bring it!

I know that since I’m still new to blogging and don’t have a shit ton of followers, I will have to continuously work hard to get my content out there for people to read. I don’t expect any of this to be easy. But you know what, that’s fine with me if no one reads my stuff at all or that some of my posts generally suck. I don’t expect all of my content to be winners. I just enjoy making the consistent effort to get my content out in the public whenever I can. However, I haven’t told anyone besides one of my sisters that I have a blog. Everyone else has been left in the dark because I decided to embark on a new life with people I have a better connection with and that’s other people who love to write. So for those who follow me and read my posts, thank you so much!

So with this in mind, I will continue to keep going, no matter what because I just feel inspired to do it knowing there are some “obstacles” along the way. And also because it’s something I’ve always been passionate about.

Cheers!

Photo: Bell Rock on the Courthouse Butte Loop trail in Sedona, Arizona

via Daily Prompt: Tardy

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