A conveyor full of abundance.
January was an interesting month for me this year. I’m proud of myself for putting in the effort to post blogs all month. It was really fun and I enjoyed it very much. However, as the first month of 2018 closes, I can’t help but wonder what’s going to happen in February. My future is unknown.
My rent is due tomorrow, my bank account is overdrawn by $300, creditors are already blowing up my phone and my food supply is running low. Tough situation to be in right? Yes, but am I upset, anxious and worried? Eh, not really. I know that things will get better if I just keep going. I should be worried but for some reason I just feel that things are going to change for the better soon as long as I don’t allow myself to succumb to emotions that don’t serve me well.
I know it’s my “fault” that I’m in this situation, but the way I think about it is that it’s happening for a very good reason. I decided to take a huge step out of my comfort zone in order to finally align with the life I want to live. I knew it needed to be done and that it wasn’t going to be easy at all. I knew there would be risks involved but I wasn’t going to allow fear and doubt to stand in my way. And I know that before things can get better, they have to be shitty first. So here I am, deep in shit, ready to deal with whatever else comes my way.
I’m looking at all of this from a stoic point of view: Stay calm, put negative emotions on the back burner, focus on what needs to be done, then take action.
January wasn’t an abundant month for me in regards to finances and money, but that’s ok. I know financial abundance will come as long as I’m taking massive action towards it. The progress in all areas I’m working with is really slow but that’s ok as well because it’s teaching me patience and forcing me to want to work harder.
Even though my financial situation has come crashing down, I’m still grateful for everything else I have in my life. It’s a major struggle right now, but I’m going to keep rolling with the punches.
February could very well bring me back into balance with my finances, which would be awesome! But if it doesn’t, I just need to accept it and keep going. I know that I can’t control all the shit that’s happening to me, but at least I can control how I respond to them.