Today was awesome! A huge game changer for me. The way my life has been, is making it’s way out the door. See ya!
My life has completely crumbled and I couldn’t be more excited about it! And I’ll tell you why.
But first, I feel most people who are ok living a mediocre life would be puzzled with the decisions I’ve recently made and continue to make. But that’s ok, everyone is entitled to their own opinion. To each their own, right? I won’t settle for less than I’m worth anymore. So yes, in order to fulfill the life I’m meant to live as the better version of myself, I need to take that huge leap of faith I’ve talked about in past blogs. I’m taking massive action to making my dreams a reality.
I talked to my leasing office manager in my apartment complex this morning and said I can’t pay rent. She was very cool about it all but of course had to tell me all the consequences of breaking my lease and all that other shit. Cool, I’m fine with that. I have 3 days to vacate my apartment, so guess what? Most of the crap I own will either be donated, sold or trashed. I’ve held on to so much and didn’t want to let go, but damn, if I want to pursue my passion in writing, I need to make a lot of room for it. I plan to travel because traveling feeds my soul and opens up the major portal to the creative side of my brain. How am I going to do all of this? No clue, but I will find a way. Where there’s a will, there’s a way.
Lately, I haven’t written anything really inspiring as I’ve had some crap to deal with which puts a major halt on my creativity but I know it will open again at some point once the storm in my life blows through. But I need this to happen.
I feel that the most inspiring people are the ones who go through tremendous devastation in life and survive it to tell their stories. Their stories are always interesting, no doubt. Without going through tremendous devastation, how can anyone inspire other people? How can they even relate and empathize with those who are going through hard times if they haven’t experienced it themselves? They lived through hard times and can help others go through them as well.
So why am I excited about my life crumbling? Because I need all of this to happen in order to be motivated enough to make shit happen. Like I’ve explained in my past blog about letting obstacles be your fuel in life, obstacles and crappy situations are actually diamonds in the rough, or blessing in disguise. They are there to show you what needs to change, as I feel the Universe is always wanting to help you live the most abundant life as a human. But most people are so comfortable that they refuse to change, therefore, cutting themselves short or rather settling for less than they deserve. They are willing to live unhappy lives because they refuse to change.
I have a really good feeling about this year. I can’t explain it, I just feel it. But it will only happen if I allow myself to go through various uncomfortable situations that are beneficial towards my future. The past few months have really been leading up to this point but of course I did the same as most and refused to change, thinking things would change on it’s own. Nope. I went to the gym a lot hoping that it would help me and it did physically and mentally, but it didn’t change the situation in my life that needed to be changed.
So as much as I’d like to keep blogging every day, I need to roll up my sleeves and focus on handling all the massive changes I’m going through right now so I can come back and share my experiences. My creativity has taken a vacation to allow me to handle business, but once it comes back, it’s on like Donkey Kong!
Photo: J checking out the wind direction and “spotting” the drop zone in a C-130.