…is to help people.
Even though I’m new with blogging, I feel it’s what I’m supposed to do to help people in the long run and I genuinely love it. Things may not be super inspiring right now, but Rome wasn’t built in a day, right? So in order to help people, I have to travel to feed my soul because it’s what my heart wants. When you listen to your heart, your creativity blossoms and miracles happen; your soul is no longer encrusted with bullshit.
I was planning to go to the Grand Canyon yesterday but saw on the news that the weather conditions weren’t very good. So I felt this was a sign to stay on my path towards heading to the Four Corners. As I did, I was hit with so many epiphanies. The road I took was another long and lonely road but the views were amazing. Anytime I would notice something cool along the way, boom, another epiphany. I just couldn’t believe it. Everything I had experienced over the last 6 months made sense.
It took me over 4 hours to get to the Four Corners but it seemed much shorter. I was just so happy to be traveling, regardless of my financial situation. I actually teared up so many times since I left my sister’s house the other night because I felt like I was finally on the right path and serving my purpose in life. I felt free.
For the past 6 months, I went through a lot. I didn’t understand myself at all. I went through the dark night of the soul, which is a very lonely and depressing experience. I felt my life had no meaning. I didn’t understand anything. I had more than enough money, a loving boyfriend, and a nice apartment with lots of “stuff”. I pretty much had everything but none of it mattered to me for some reason and it scared me. I spent a good few months in isolation and depression.
That was the time when I should’ve started traveling but I didn’t. I stayed locked up in my apartment feeling sorry for myself with all the materialistic crap I didn’t care about. So yes, I do know what depression feels like and I’ve come to the conclusion that, in most cases, when you are depressed, it’s because you are not serving your authentic purpose in life. And from what I’ve experienced, it’s from the fear of having to step out of your comfort zone.
When the end of January came around, things changed. I knew I needed to leave the apartment instead of trying to find ways to pay for another month of depression since I refused to work another job that did not align with my self worth.
Leaving was a hard thing to do because it felt uncomfortable but I knew I needed to do it. After leaving, I thought I would be ok staying at my sister’s house. Nope. I still felt something was not right. I felt better but I still felt that something was missing and for some reason I couldn’t help but think about the ticking of time and how I was wasting it.
Then it came to me during meditation, which I cannot emphasize enough the importance of it daily. I needed to leave and travel regardless of my financial situation. I had enough to make a trip to the Four Corners which was 654 miles one way. I had about $250 in cash from the furniture I sold along with two mason jars full of change. I know $250 and some change may seem like a lot to travel with, but not when you have a Jeep. The looks I get when I pay gas with dimes and quarters is priceless.
Even though it’s been only a couple of days since I left, I’ve experience so many unbelievable things.
Right now, I’m typing this from a hotel room I didn’t even pay for with the cash I had. I kept receiving a lot of random emails from Swagbucks yesterday and thought this must be a sign from the Universe about why this is happening, and so I logged in. Well I had forgotten about the money I made from it, which went to my PayPal. Score! I used it for the hotel even when I was perfectly fine sleeping in my Jeep. The hotel room was only $20 and really nice. I couldn’t believe it. I felt it was the Universe rewarding me for finally hoping on the path and doing what I’m supposed to do in this life.
But just because this happened, I don’t expect everything to work out like this during my newly discovered purpose as I believe that the challenges I come across are the opportunities to grow as a person and humble me. I’ve allowed myself to stay open to whatever may come because when you do that you win either way, which means I’ll still accept the sweet rewards the Universe offers me, no doubt!
So I made it to the Four Corners, just in the nick of time. I honestly didn’t think I would make it in time for the day because the time was very close from when I left Williams, Arizona and I was concerned about the weather conditions but I made it without even rushing. I only asked for 15 minutes to see the place and I got 20. It was great because it wasn’t busy at all and I actually had the place to myself in the end. I almost felt like Santiago from The Alchemist traveling to see the pyramids, but it was me traveling to see the Four Corners. And now I truly TRULY believe that when you really want something, and it’s from the heart, the whole Universe will conspire to help you get it. Cheers!