Do You Consider Yourself a Compassionate Person?

An 88 year old man opened the door for me yesterday.

I wasn’t even that close to the door but he saw me coming and wanted to wait for me. I thought, “Wow, an elderly man who walks around with a cane wanted to open the door for me and wait?” Most men around my age (I’m 36) don’t even do that!

As much as I’ve come to feel connected with everything, since my spiritual awakening, I feel that narcissism has caused many people to ignore compassion towards others and I can feel it, deeply. It’s almost as if we live in an age of self-concern instead of compassion.

There have been many times that I’ve opened doors for people, let people go ahead of me at the grocery store when they have a few items, be courteous on the road and acknowledge their existence with just a smile. I would say that most of the time, I never received a thank you, a wave of appreciation or a smile back. Should I expect them? No, but it’s still polite to acknowledge someone who showed some act of kindness, don’t you think?

I almost feel as if people unconsciously think it’s wrong to show compassion towards others now that we are habituated into the era of self-gratification. I notice that most people can’t even look me in the eyes when they are walking my way. And it’s unfortunate because I just wait to see if they’ll look up at me so I can share a friendly smile with them, but most of the times, they never do. They’re either trying to prevent eye contact, or the usual, too busy looking down at their phones.

It’s a little pessimistic to think about all this, as I’m not a natural pessimist, but I can’t help but notice what’s really going on. I guess you can say this is rather a realist point of view, instead of a pessimistic one, right? But it’s all good. I’m sure you can pick up what I’ve put down.

I know that these types of self-centered behaviors don’t exist everywhere and that’s one reason why I left SoCal. I want to seek out and meet new people who are genuinely caring, compassionate and humble, like the elderly man I met yesterday. He was awesome!

I never did get his name, but I’ll definitely remember him because he was so polite and we had such an awesome conversation about the journey of life. We also talked about the lack of mannerism in society, which is what caused me to write this blog. Also, the daily prompt was about narcissism…perfect combo.

So the elderly man asked if I grew up on a ranch because he wondered why I was being so kind to him. I just told him it’s the right thing to do. I don’t have to force myself to be that way, it happens naturally. He told me that he doesn’t see much kindness and people are rude most of the time, especially to the elderly.

This made me wonder: Why are so many people so rude to the elderly?

Is it because everyone is in such a rush all the time and that elderly people are a bit slower in nature?

I have so much respect for the elderly, especially since I met my new lifetime friend yesterday. They’ve been through a lot and the fact they were alive before everything became so instant. They worked harder than we do now and had to experience many forms of patience and adversity. Whereas now, they have to observe younger people having ridiculous anxiety attacks over not receiving a text message within seconds. And you wonder why some of the elderly people get cranky. They have to observe spoiled brats everywhere in society when their wish for Alzheimer’s hasn’t kicked in yet.

So with this said, I’m off to meet more elderly friends on my Jeep life journey. I’m all about syncing up with people who are compassionate because as energetic beings, we become the energy that we constantly surround ourselves with. Cheers!

via Daily Prompt: Narcissism


Living in My Jeep: Day 2

So far, so good.

Last night was tough for me though. I did feel very out of place, alone and on edge but I pulled myself together after I made my blog post earlier today.

I was able to park in a residential area to sleep for the night. It was nice because there wasn’t a lot of cars flying by to wake me up. The weather was also nice outside, so I wasn’t freezing.

So, today I was busy. My work transfer went through and I was able to pick up a few delivery blocks. Yay! It kept me busy for 6 hours and I was able to check out a lot of new areas. That’s what great about being able to deliver: I get to deliver to places I probably wouldn’t have ever gone to on my own. Some are nice and some are a bit scary.

I met an 88 year old man today at Wendy’s. I just randomly decided to go there for lunch and as I walked to the door, he opened the door for me when I should’ve been the one to open it for him and this gave me an idea for tomorrow’s blog post, so stay tuned. So because he opened the door for me, I let him order food first. He dropped his cane and I helped him with it. Then he asked if I owned the black Jeep and we made small talk while waiting for our food. We sat in different areas of the restaurant but as he was getting ready to leave, he came over to talk to me and we ended up talking for almost an hour.

As I started listening to him tell me about his adventures as a younger man, I started to realize that maybe I was meant to cross paths with him. He owned a Jeep Wrangler at one point and has traveled to different places on his own. He was wearing a turquoise ring and talking about the places he’s visited that I’ve either visited or want to visit. He also has the desire to travel to places still, even though he’s 88 and I just thought that was awesome. He brought up about past lives and a lot of things I’m really into. Basically, the conversation was just unreal but unfortunately he had to go and so did I. I never got his name and I wish I did, but for some reason, I feel that we’ll meet up again, if not in this lifetime again, maybe the next one.

That conversation with the 88 year old man, definitely made my day. I was already having a pretty good day, but he just made it sooo much better.

I don’t really have much else going on as I’m still trying to settle into my new life living in my Jeep. I’m hoping to find some cool spots, take lots of pictures and experience a lot of cool shit to blog about.

For now, it’s time to find a new spot to camp out at. Cheers!

Don’t Worry, Be Happy

We are constantly bombarded every day with so much, that our minds become ridiculously overwhelmed. I also love this song by Bobby McFerrin.

I just left SoCal the other day and as I drove through LA rush hour in the afternoon, I started to notice how other drivers looked so stressed out. Aren’t most of these people heading home, instead of work? Why is everyone rushing so much all the time, especially when they don’t need to? Is it because we now live in an era of instant gratification?

The more we try to rush in our daily lives, the more complication we add to it. Our brains can only process so much at a time before our minds start malfunctioning. And when our brains start malfunctioning, we start to dig up more ways to make life go haywire. What our minds come up with constantly, is what we see in our reality, right?

I’ve experienced this many times. In fact, I’m trying really hard to get back to stop rushing everything, because when you rush, you create resistance and when you create resistance, you start worrying and when you worry, you are definitely not happy. Slow is smooth, smooth is fast, right?

Since we have become so aligned with instant gratification, it’s easy to create all sorts of illusions. Like how some people feel the need to rush through traffic, almost causing an accident, just to get home. For what? Are they worried they won’t make it home on time to watch their favorite tv show? It’s amazing how the mind will come up with random things to worry about when we allow ourselves to rush.

So stop rushing, even when you feel the need to. Don’t be lazy either because that will cause the illusion of worrying just as much. Just do what you can that makes you feel at ease, regardless of the situation, because when you feel at ease, you don’t worry and when you don’t worry, you’re happy.

And when you’re happy, you get shit done in time! Cheers!


Photo: Me at the knoll of the Boynton Canyon vortex in Sedona, Arizona, at the beginning of 2017, when life was super chill and worry free

via Daily Prompt: Complication

Living In My Jeep: Day 1

Hello again, San Francisco!

I left SoCal again last night to give San Francisco another shot. It was a premature decision because I really wasn’t ready to make this huge move but something told me to just go, just like the time I up and left to visit the Four Corners in New Mexico, randomly. I also wanted to make the decision fast, before my mind started coming up with reasons to stay put in my comfort zone. Boring.

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Where Do I Want To Go…

As I sit in my Jeep by a park, waiting for my 2.5 hour delivery shift to start in an hour, I think to myself… where do I want to go?

I need change and I need to make things happen fast because my patience with boredom is running thin. Adventure, risk taking and new beginnings is what I’d like to experience now.

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My Yearlong Journey Down the Rabbit Hole and Pulling Myself Out of It

I’ve experienced a lot of weirdness over this past year and most of it has been beyond my capability of understanding.

As I’ve mentioned in a previous blog, I fell down the rabbit hole for a year and became very confused with just about everything in life: my identity, emotions, values, goals, etc. My thoughts became very cloudy and waves of darkness would hover over me at random times, which made me feel lethargic, stagnant and lost. To me, this was trash because I’m naturally an optimistic, non-emotional, go-getter in life.

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