I guess posting my Jeep adventures at the end of every day isn’t going to happen, due to lack of wi-fi accessibility. So, I figure I’ll just post when I can.
Yesterday wasn’t anything to rave about. I was able to pick up a 3 hour delivery shift and then felt vulnerability and boredom start to sink in when I finished. I didn’t run away from it, I parked at a nearby park and allowed that feeling to run its course. There’s no point in trying to run away from emotions. You just have to allow it to do its thing and then you move on when you know it’s time.
I knew the first week was going to be a tough one. I practically threw myself out into many unknowns all at once, so I’m not shocked about how I’ve been feeling. But regardless how shitty I feel at times, I know I’m on the right path. I just need to get through the initial tough part we all go through when we make massive changes in our lives. Once the dust settles, I’ll be good to go.
Even though it was a bit rough for me yesterday, I did start this morning off pretty well. I went to Starbucks right before the gym and saw a little paper boat right by where I parked in great condition for where it was.
My first thought was that it reminded me of the paper boat that caused Georgie to die in Stephen King’s It. And then I thought about all the storm drains I’ve parked by lately during my delivery shifts. Creepy, right? But I didn’t get a creepy vibe from the paper boat. In fact, it lifted me up when I saw it and ever since I picked it up, I’ve felt pretty good. But who knows, anything can happen at any moment, right? Que sera, sera – whatever will be, will be.
So I thought I would share a typical day so far and where I’m at.
As of right now, my work station is based in San Jose, which is about 30 minutes south of San Fransisco. It’s busy here and reminds me of LA. Meh. However, it’s not that bad and I’ve been able to find places to camp out at.
I usually start my mornings off looking around to see if people are around so I can change into my gym clothes in the back seat. All windows on my Jeep are tinted except my windshield so I always look to see if there’s someone walking by.
After I change, I pick out the clothes I want to wear for the day and put them into my backpack. then I hop in the front seat when the coast is clear and take off towards the nearest Starbucks to enjoy my morning $1.95 coffee, and use the wi-fi for a couple of hours. After that, I head to the gym to do gym stuff and then shower. Then if I’m able to grab a delivery block, I hop on that, if not, I try to venture around the area during my downtime. And this is where the emotions come up.
I’m limited to what I can do, where I can go and how far, until I make enough money to replace my clutch and venture off to another area. It’s a slow process, very unpredictable and can get boring and lonely but I’m trying to adapt until it’s time to move on elsewhere.
So when my downtime is over and it becomes completely dark outside, usually between 9pm and 10pm, I go search for random places to camp out at. Then, dun dun dun…I park and crawl into my back seat and go to sleep.
Not very exciting, right? But this is just the start and I never intended for things to be mind-blowing at first. Great things take time and so far I’m pushing through the boring part.
Anyways, it’s about time to leave Starbucks and find a place to camp out for the night. If you want to help me out on this journey, be sure to check out my other blogs as I do get paid for each view. It’s not very much but it’s something and every view is appreciated!
Photo: The paper boat I found next to my Jeep this morning at Starbucks.