I used to love them! But then yesterday, things changed.
When I was teenager (mid-late 90’s), I used to love trips to the mall. I was a military brat and grew up near the Marine Corps base (MCAGCC) out in the desert, in the middle of nowhere. If you wanted to disappear from society, that’s where you go. The nearest shopping mall was in Palm Springs, which was about 70 miles away!
When I think of shopping malls, I think of a huge “Westfield” sign on a building with food courts and department/name brand stores from Nordstrom to Zumiez, although Zumiez didn’t exist when I was growing up.
Pacific Sunwear, or better known today as Pac Sun, was my go to store, since I lived in Southern California. I used to love buying all sorts of clothes and accessories there that had that “beach life” flavor to it. I also liked checking out all the stores that sold shoes. Adidas and Puma were my favorite shoe brands and at the time, they weren’t very popular like they are today.
Then as I got older, I started to lose interest in buying anything from the mall, unless I really had to. I just loved walking around and looking at all the different kinds of “stuff” you can buy and loved to check out the creativity in clothing, jewelry, electronics, etc. along with their astronomical prices.
The reason why I started to lose interest as I got older was because anytime I would start buying things, I would later develop that feeling of “buyer’s remorse” when I got home. Something always just felt “off”. I didn’t understand why at the time but now, I realize that my intuition was telling me that there are certain things that I just don’t need to buy. Of course, as a teenager, and even 3 years ago, I wouldn’t know how to process this because I felt that if you like something, and you have enough money, you should buy it! Oh how wrong I was. But I didn’t know any better because I wasn’t going through my spiritual awakening yet, so I was definitely unaware and asleep.
So where am I going with this?
Yesterday, I decided to walk around a shopping mall that’s located by the gym I go to, in order to kill some time after my delivery shift ended. I haven’t been in a shopping mall since I met my twin flame last year! During the time I was in contact with him, we only went into the mall to grab coffee, walk around and crack jokes about pretty much anything. I never paid attention to the stores anymore, I just liked walking around sipping on coffee and cracking jokes.
Well yesterday, I decided to walk around and grab something to eat at the food court. As I was walking around, I paid attention to the stores because I was alone, I already had enough coffee for the day and I only crack jokes to myself when I’m about to go to sleep.
And before I explain any further, I just want to note that I was in a really good mood. So anything from here on out was based on me being happy and not feeling like an emotional and pessimistic shit head because I was “alone” during my realization. As I’ve explained in my post What My Blog Is and Isn’t About, I’m pretty blunt and it can offend people but I just like being honest because it’s authentic.
So as I walked through the mall alone yesterday in full aware mode, I started to realize why I no longer liked shopping malls: I would rather spend my money on something that contributes towards meaningful experiences, which gain value, than to spend my money on things that would lose value the moment I bought it. I’m all about natural, not superficial. I’ve always felt that way, I just didn’t realize it fully until I walked around the mall yesterday. I feel that anything I buy from the shopping malls contribute towards superficiality, and that’s not cool with me.
Once this realization hit me, the only meaningful place in the mall is the food court, because they offer some healthy selections of food and you need food to survive and restore energy. All the other areas of the mall didn’t mean shit to me. I walked by each store and started to ask myself, “What could I buy from this store that would actually contribute towards meaningful experiences and gain value?” Nothing. Whatever useful meaning I had once given them, all disappeared.
This reminded me of a quote from Dave Ramsey and from the movie Fight Club:
“We buy things we don’t need with money we don’t have to impress people we don’t like.”
That’s exactly how I feel about shopping malls now (and luxury cars). I have to thank my twin flame and the rapid awakening process for shaking the shit out of me. Because if it hadn’t been for them, I’d still be asleep, walking around like a zombie, thinking that shopping malls contribute towards my overall success in life, when really, they contribute towards a superficial lifestyle.
The fancy clothes, the fancy jewelry, and the overpriced everything else, is just a waste of money. What do they really contribute towards? That quote above says it all.
So what do I want to spend my money on? Anything that will contribute towards awesome life experiences and gain value overtime and that even means buying food for someone who’s less fortunate than I am. When you give towards someone else who is in need, you gain value in life.