What if we all just took a HUGE step back?
What if we all just stopped allowing ourselves to create negative emotions when we hear about someone who is depressed, has suicidal thoughts or has committed suicide?
Anytime I hear about someone who is depressed, has suicidal thoughts or has committed suicide, I don’t react, I respond. I don’t react by conjuring up ideas that this person is “sick”, needs “help” or question what’s “wrong” with them. To me, that is a very close minded type of reaction and it does nothing but perpetuate negativity and push them towards generating more energy they don’t need. I respond by wondering what they perceive that can’t be shown to anyone else that triggered negative emotions. And what I mean by this is like how we all dream/have nightmares but we cannot explain in full detail to others exactly what we “saw’ in our dreams. I want to know why people feel the way they do so I can learn and try to understand the best that I can, not judge.
For most of my life, I’ve felt quite content with life. In fact, I’ve considered myself to be the extrovert optimist. But the last 12-15 months have really caught me off guard because I finally woke up. The spiritual awakening process happened at an accelerated rate and it was harsh. I met my twin flame and he unknowingly cracked open my ego, which is the hardest challenge I’ve EVER had to face my entire life! It wasn’t my twin that I had to face, it was the destructiveness of my own ego I had to face and overcome. And let me tell you, I still go through it…but I’m learning to master the fuck out of it so I can help others master the fuck out of it as well.
I have experienced waves of heavy depression and suicidal thoughts many times throughout this 12-15 month period because of so much confusion and anxiety that randomly came up out of nowhere. The vivid life I had once experienced most of my life all of a sudden started to seem like it was fading to black. Many thoughts of “what’s wrong with me?!?!” and “why do I feel this way?!?!” came up but that’s just what happens when your consciousness throws out all the Candyland filters and moves towards the real deal of conscious evolution. It finally throws away the sugar coated bullshit your ego has been indulging in for years and grows the fuck up. I’m not ashamed of expressing my battles with depression and suicidal thoughts because all they really are, are just emotions. Very energetically heavy many times, but only when we allow ourselves to keep feeding them by not staying aware when they show up.
Emotions are energies in motion that sustain the life in our bodies, which makes us human; they can be healing or destructive. When you start to “wake up”, all the negative/destructive energy deep seated within you will also “wake up” your awareness to them. And that’s why we hear all about the celebrities going through these dark energies now as more and more people are “waking up” to face what’s been lingering inside their own ego.
A lot of awakenings are happening as more and more people are getting triggered into it, especially with the energies involved with social media. Unfortunately, many are not aware of what’s really going on and end up falling victim to it, as we hear about all over the news.
Depression and suicidal thoughts are very, VERY heavy in negative energy. We obviously know what they are capable of doing. Humans weren’t made to live life with this type of energy as the dominant energy. We are all meant to live with balanced energies: not too much positive, not too much negative energy but flowing like an EKG heart monitor. But because we live in a 3rd dimension world of survival, where negative energy is the dominant energy (mortality), it’s easier to get sucked into negative energy. We just have to learn how to understand energy more in order to keep on keepin’ on without falling victim to any of it.
As I’ve mentioned earlier, waves of depression and suicidal thoughts run through my head randomly from day to day not because I am depressed and suicidal, like I initially thought, but only to understand the energy they represent. And these waves get pretty intense around the full moon, which is tonight actually. It’s definitely not the easiest task in the world nor is it fun whatsoever but like I’ve said, it’s something I deeply feel I’m supposed to do during this lifetime: I’m meant to help and heal people by doing what I can to educate them. But in order to do these things, I have to experience and understand them myself, otherwise I really can’t help or heal anyone.
So if you are feeling depressed or suicidal, stay aware of the fact that they are just energies that have invaded your energy field at some point on a subconscious level to where you become aware of them consciously by all the illusions that they create. Once you become aware and not give and feed into these illusions, they will lose power.
I’m always willing to learn from people’s experiences as I gain energy from them, so if you want to share anything or need any kind of healing from me just contact me. Cheers!