Boxing Yourself in the Present Moment

Make it a habit!

I never fully understood what the “present moment” was until recently, after several hours of meditation sessions. I knew what the term “present moment” meant but it was so difficult to truly understand because I couldn’t distinguish the difference between what was the past, present and future. My thoughts were scattered with memories of the past and anxieties of the future.

Anytime you think of a past memory or future thought, you are not in the present moment. There should only be one single thought in the present moment and that’s one single thing you are focusing on right now – which is you reading this now. Not what my title said when you saw it earlier and not what the next paragraph says in 5 seconds but right now. If you looked at the title or the next paragraph, you stepped out of the present moment because you were distracted.

After meditating for a while, I made it a game. I would focus on my breathing for a while, then allow my mind to start meandering off. But then I would bring my attention right back to my breathing and box myself into focusing on my breathing only. This was very difficult at first but the more I focused on it, the more I was able to “forget” what memory or anxiety my mind was trying to feed me along with the emotions that came with them. The moment that I boxed myself in with my breathing, my thoughts piped down right away.

If you can keep boxing yourself into the present moment when some past or future thought arises with some negative emotion, you naturally get into a mental state of equilibrium. Of course it’s not easy at first, but if you can learn to tie your own shoes, you can learn to rewire your brain into staying in the present moment.

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Why You Should Care About What People Think of You

To not care is based on an act of fear.

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. You can accept it as truth or not. But regardless, you should always accept their opinion but stay neutral.

Anyone who has an opinion of you, whether positive or negative, is actually offering you their time and you should be so honored because time is very valuable. Think about it. If they really didn’t care to have an opinion of you, you would not waste any of their time. But the fact that anyone has any opinion of you is giving you something very valuable. And it goes the other way, any time you respond, you give them a piece of your time. Staying neutral is far more less time given than anger, wouldn’t you agree?

So just accept opinions as truth or not, stay neutral towards them, thank them for the time they have given you and then move along. When you do this, you are actually standing up to an act of fear being brought upon you, not running away from it. Cheers!

Why I Don’t Blog Much Anymore

It’s boring.

Just kidding.

There’s a lot I would like to blog about but after reading many of my posts from 2018 and especially my recent post, I’ve come to the conclusion that a lot of them were really meant to be private journal entries of my progress through my spiritual awakening, not something for me to share just yet. I won’t delete them though so you can still read them if you want.

When I look back at them, I notice how ahead of myself I was. It’s almost like I published rough drafts instead of final drafts thinking they were all final drafts. And the posts I’m referring to are mostly spiritual ones such as the twin flame journey. To me, that’s garbage now and I was completely wrong about the whole ideology behind it because I have no connection anymore whatsoever to the person I thought was my twin flame.

The blogs on the dark night of the soul and spiritual awakening still stands firmly for me. I will blog more about those soon. Also, anything that I published in regards to practical matters such as Stoicism also stands firmly for me and I would like to focus more on that in collaboration with the spiritual awakening process.

Why? Because being Stoic is about understanding emotions and how to control them under various circumstances and going through the spiritual awakening process is quite possibly the most difficult challenge a human can go through. It specifically targets your emotions and the perceptions that you gain from them, which is based on all the fears you never knew existed within you.

Anyone who says that an awakening is an easy and blissful process is throwing out a bunch of bullshit. It’s basically You vs. You or rather You vs. The Dark Side of You (the internal Pandora’s Box within you). I’ll explain that in another post.

So basically, I’m going to “try” to keep my personal life personal and revert back to keeping things simple. I’ll share what I come up with/learned by experience/meditation/aha moments but I’ll try to write it in a way that has a more nonpersonal flavor to it. Cheers!

Frequency Illusion

I never knew what frequency illusion was until something came up in a conversation I had with my sister about a year ago.

I don’t exactly remember what the conversation was about but my sister had mentioned a phrase that I never heard before or possibly heard but never paid attention to – “the straw that broke the camel’s back”. I only remember acknowledging “the final straw” and “the last straw”. I didn’t think too much about it but I did think that phrase was interesting.

Not too long after I hear that phrase from her, I see this phrase in some random blog post and I also hear the phrase in a random Youtube video. I didn’t think to jot down the links to the blog post or Youtube as I was paying more attention to the phenomenon of what I was experiencing.

After seeing the Youtube video and reading the blog post, I googled about this phenomenon. I wanted to blog about it several times but just kept forgetting about it even though there were other times this frequency illusion would occur.

So what is frequency illusion? It’s also called the Baader-Meinhoff phenomenon, where you start noticing the frequency of something you either first learned about or recently took notice to. And it could be linked to how the name Austin occurred three times as I described in Hello Austin, Texas! or how I came across the nudist park in My Experience At A Nudist Resort.

Even though these two different events took place to remind me of this phenomenon, I still forgot about the phenomenon until recently when I was once again reminded.

What reminded me of blogging about this again was the word ayahuasca. I learned about it in Sedona from someone I met back in May before my US road trip. I had completely forgot about it, but then was randomly reminded of it recently when I was updated on a Youtube video about it, a conversation with someone about it came up, and then I received a reply to my comment on another Youtube video about ayahuasca that was posted a couple of weeks ago. Hmmm….maybe I should try ayahuasca….

Anyways from what I gathered, this frequency illusion may just be a way of showing people how manifestation and the law of attraction works without effort and if you are aware, you can pick up on a lot of cool shit you manifested. You think about something new and/or interesting but the moment you start to forget about it, it shows up multiple times randomly.

Have you become aware of any frequency illusions in your life, and if so, what happened?

 

The True Benefit of Meditation

There are many different kinds of legitimate articles and such that explain all the benefits of meditation. I’ve read so many and they all sound great and have been proven by science. However, the one thing I feel many of them lack is the ability to express the benefits in a way to where the reader can truly understand.

People will only pay close attention and be motivated by something they resonate and connect with. You can throw out a lot of information about the benefits of whatever along with some statistics, but no one will actually pay attention or be motivated unless you explain something to where they can truly connect and understand in a “aha” kind of way.

So with meditation, I feel that the one benefit everyone can relate with is the ability to take a step back as an observer.

What do I mean?

Let’s say you receive a phone call from a really good friend of yours. The moment you answer the phone, they are sobbing and going hysterical because they were just dumped. You aren’t sobbing and freaking out over them getting dumped, you just want to know what happened, find ways to console them and try to give some advice. This means you are actually in the position of being the observer of their situation. You are more clear headed than them, which allows you to see the solutions they may not be able to see because they are currently spending all of their energy wallowing in their own confusion of emotions.

Now instead of your friend, it is you that got dumped.

Instead of calling up a friend, you seek help from yourself. When you meditate consistently, you naturally have the ability to take a step back in the same way you did with your friend. You don’t have to try to take a step back, it becomes a natural habit in the same way you blink the moment something tries to invade your eyeball. You don’t start sobbing and freak out, you immediately become your own observer before you can acknowledge it. And when you become your own observer, you become aware of the solutions that are available to you so you don’t react like an asshole, and regret what you did later.

I have been meditating consistently for the last 11 days ranging from 2 minutes at a time to an hour. Surprisingly, I have noticed the difference in my response to my recent experience last night.

I was trying to look for an Air BnB room for the night but couldn’t find any available in the area I’m in. So I looked up hotels and though they weren’t cheap at all I really wanted to shower and sleep in a bed because I drove a lot and needed the rest. So instead of getting all worked up over not finding an Air BnB room or decent priced hotel, I just paid for a hotel room and that was that.

So I get my room and once I opened the door, I saw that the room did not have sheets and a blanket on the bed, as if housekeeping forgot to clean it. I go back to the lobby and get another room. It’s smaller but it is clean. However, I find out later that the shower doesn’t work and I can only take a bath. Then I get an email indicating that my credit card declined an automatic payment from my gym because I had forgotten to put more money on my credit card after reactivating my Hulu account. Doh!

Of course, at this point I would’ve been livid because I just drove all day, and was super tired and hungry but instead my brain function in a calm way and I just went with it. I didn’t go back to the lobby to complain, I just took a bath, paid my credit card, ate some food, chilled out and meditated before I went to sleep. This was awesome because I didn’t waste a lot of my energy getting livid and complaining about things that are out of my control. I was able to control the one thing I do have control of, which is the way I respond. And damn my response was on par and it felt really fucking good!

Even though I had only spent 11 days consistently meditating, the habit came back easily because I had started picking up the habit before. It’s almost like swimming, once you learn, you can’t unlearn or have to relearn all over again. You just pick the habit back up where you left off. The habit may be a little rusty at first but will smooth out pretty easily.

Once the habit is ingrained and you keep the momentum going, your response to just about anything will naturally be efficient without you trying. Therefore, you will only see everything from an observation point of view instead of getting lost in the ocean of emotions like your friend who just got dumped.

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Photo: A view of the Pacific Ocean from a vista point located in San Simeon, California

 

 

 

The Problem With Awareness

What is awareness?

Awareness is the ability to derive an explanation about something beyond the surface of understanding.

What do I mean? Let’s talk about jealousy.

Last night I went to IHOP for dinner. Yep, dinner. The guy who was practically running the show (host, server, busser) was in a great mood and really talkative as I walked up to pay. He was having a conversation with one of the cooks about jealousy and how he couldn’t understand why he considered himself to be “the shit” and have all this confidence but still gets very jealous. So, as I’m paying my check, he asked me if I get jealous. I was a little hesitant to answer him just because I just knew I’d confuse the shit out of him with my answer and not because it was some random question I’m sure most people would take offense to. I did decide to answer just to see how he’d respond and he responded just the way I thought.

I replied, “Of course I get jealous, because if I was never jealous, I wouldn’t be human. It’s a matter of how you balance your jealousy.”

His response was priceless. He went from really talkative and confident to really quiet and confused. After a few seconds he asked me what I meant, then asked me what I do for a living.

I just told him that jealousy is a natural human emotion and to not have even just a little bit of it, would make me unhuman. As humans, we are housed with all sorts of emotions because we are mortal and survival depends on our emotions and how well we balance them with our ego. The more untamed your ego is, the more jealous you become as well. This is what separates us from artificial intelligence as their ego always coincides with emotion because that’s the ultimate goal of every human. They have it easy. But as humans, we cannot obtain that ultimate goal so easily as life is all about constantly putting in the work towards learning how to balance your ego with your emotions.

Then I proceeded to leave by telling him that I confuse people for a living. Boy was he confused when I left.

Was my ego lit from that explanation? Nah.

He asked me a question in which most people would respond with either no or yes because of their surface understanding of the word jealousy and the negative connotations that are attached to it. My response wasn’t just based on philosophical principles, it was also logical, based on the awareness of human emotions and I wanted to share that with him.

The problem with awareness in this case is the fact that I see jealousy as something more than being a negative emotion. I see it beyond the surface as an emotion that helps us to evolve when balanced correctly and also an emotion that emphasizes the beauty of being a human. However, I cannot emphasize that awareness to most people because they do not understand due to lack of awareness and, therefore, would consider me “too deep” and confusing.

All people see is just a dull thought of how jealousy is “bad” because it’s an easy and simplified way to understand something without much brain activity. End of story. And because more people are unaware than aware, and majority rules, the aware ones are considered outliers, weird and awkward. Well, how else are we supposed to communicate with you to where you can understand? Annoyance level 100.

However, to be truly aware is to acknowledge that our annoyance stems from our own lack of awareness of understanding that most people don’t know any better and we can’t blame them. It simply isn’t their fault. That’s where learning to balance compassion comes in and this is something I do struggle with.

Becoming more aware is trying to balance your compassion level with your annoyance level. It’s not easy and, like I’ve mentioned before, is a continuing process but continuous effort does need to happen. You want to be compassionate and understanding of the unintended and restricted thought process of most people but know there’s more to life than superficial conversations and surface level small talk.

So what do you do? It’s a battle and definitely a challenge that comes with becoming aware. However, I feel more people are becoming aware so the annoyance level should pipe down to a minimum at some point.

What do you think? Do you consider yourself to think beyond the surface of most things in life? I’m curious.